January 2012
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Anonymous asked: What are your plans for New Years Eve?
December 2011
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My parents are discussing what my Facebook...
“What is h03$”?
“Well, I know h/o is hold on…”
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I'm in love with the pain.
I’m addicted to the rush. When you’re barely hanging on, but you refuse to give up. When you know how wrong something is, but you keep on fighting. When everyone tells you how unhappy you are, but they don’t understand, because you’re happy as hell. I miss the way my heart would race and my hands would shake and I would talk all loud to anyone that would listen, and they...
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I guess I'm not totally over my past.
But who is? I mean, how could you possibly just forget all that you’ve been through? It’s nearly impossible to do. The truth is that it’s a whole lot easier to forgive than to forget, and sometimes it feels as if remembering is a curse. But it’s okay to not be over your past. No one really is. It’s okay to still feel a sinking feeling in your chest when you think...
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I told myself that things would be different this time. I really believed that they would be, too. But it turns out that nothing has changed. So I guess if insanity really is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results, than I must be insane. I must be insane for thinking that people change, because they really, really don’t. I think I just realized how many of...
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Stays Four The Same - The Ready Set
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It’s sad when you change so much that you can’t be recognized, but it’s sadder when people think you’ve changed so much, but really, you’re exactly the same. You don’t know me anymore and I don’t know you. I guess we never really knew each other at all. And those facts alone should make it possible to start over. But they aren’t. Because we...
Anonymous asked: Stop thinking about suicide. You have too much going for you and it would be a shame to throw it all away. I've looked at your posts and I can see that you're a talented writer. Don't let that go to waste. Write out your pain and your sorrows. Someone somewhere loves you and would be sad to see you go. Keep your head up and keep looking and moving forward, things will get better.
Save me.
I am not ready to die yet.
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Sometimes words fail.
Sometimes they don’t sound all pretty and poetic, strung together and edited over and over again. Sometimes they’re ugly. Sometimes they’re said in choppy sentences, or screamed and cried and blubbered like a baby until they don’t even seem to make sense anymore. And those are the words that mean the most: the words that others can hardly make out over our gasping cries....
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These feelings will be the death of us.
We’re taught how to love, but not how to stop.
Though I love words more than I love most things, words will never even come close to the comfort of a human being. I could write pages and pages, but after I’m finished, I couldn’t feel half the satisfaction I could from the presence of a friend when I need it the most. And I’m sure it sounds corny, maybe even cheesy and phony and dumb, but I surely believe it. When I’m...
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Isn't it silly how statistics never seem to...
One person can make or break our views about humanity. One person can make us turn optimistic or pessimistic. In the moment, one person can make us think that everyone is full of rainbows and butterflies, just like one person can make us think that everyone is a jerk. One person can be the difference between “life is beautiful” and “life is a terrible place to be.”
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Why do we always blame society?
We are society.
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We Came As Romans - To Move On Is To Grow
To move...
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I'm a scrooge.
It’s not that I hate Christmas, I just don’t see the big deal about it. It’s almost as if once I stopped believing in the fat man in a white fringed red velvet suit, I stopped believing in this holiday altogether. My parents ask me what I want for Christmas, and year after year it’s been, “nothing.” I’m not very materialistic, I guess. I get presents...
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You are the source of my greatest heartbreak. You left the deepest scar. You are the demon inside of me, the reason for everything I hate about myself. Do I have to spell it out for you? I hate you for what you did, and continue to do to me. Why in the world would you expect me to love you? I’m not going to say you’re a terrible person, and I won’t deny that you’ve done a...
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Just be yourself and shut your mouth.
It annoys me to no end when people find the need to justify every move that they make. No one cares. Honestly. Are you really that insecure? I’m not going to judge you for being you and doing you. But when you shove your decisions in my face and try to argue against a nonexistent argument, that’s when I draw the line. There’s no reason for you to flaunt or explain your lifestyle;...
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But instead I'm here, drowning in my own fucking...
The tears that stain my cheeks must make me look weak… I wear them proudly.
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Everything happens for a reason.
It takes misery to appreciate happiness, stupid decisions to make smart ones, immaturity to grow up, heartbreak to know what love is, mental breakdowns to achieve strength, selfishness to be selfless, isolation to realize what’s important in your life, and regret to make you appreciate what you had.
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We're so small.
Even if you’re the tallest man in the world, if you look at everything closely and mentally compare it to your own size, you can put your finger on the fact that everything’s so much bigger than you are. I don’t live in a mansion, but a million of me’s could fit in the space that I call my home. Even more could fit in a school. Even more could fit in a town, in a country,...
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Getting out of bed isn't any fun.
And drinking isn’t really fun anymore and smoking never really was and parties aren’t fun and hearing about parties is even less fun and people aren’t fun, even friends and family aren’t too fun. Getting attached isn’t any fun but being alone isn’t any fun either and playing Monopoly by yourself isn’t fun and getting ready for nothing isn’t fun and...
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There's this silent bitterness in my soul that...
I’m still waiting for life to work out for me, but I hope life worked out for you. I hope you’re happy, even when I’m not. I hope she makes you happier than I ever could.
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I wonder if any of this crap we put ourselves...
It’s almost as if we only discipline ourselves to prove our strength, because taking a shortcut is the weak thing to do, right? We fight against our inner demon so that it doesn’t end up eating us alive. Because if it does, then what do we have to show for it? A messed up life and a messed up mind. And if you’re messed up you ain’t no good in this society in this day and...
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Apologies mean absolutely nothing if you keep on doing what you apologized for.
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It's very important that you read this, for it...
Ice-age heat wave, can’t complain. If the world’s at large, why should I remain? Walked away to another plan. Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand. I move on to another day, to a whole new town with a whole new way. Went to the porch to have a thought. Got to the door and again, I couldn’t stop. You don’t know where and you don’t know when, but you still...
my socially awkward life
person: hey
me: good thanks
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I never wanted you half-way. I wanted you forever,...