February 2012
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So maybe I do have a heavy heart
and sometimes I don’t even realize that I do until I’m laying face up under the sheets with the lights off and this unbearable pain tortures my chest. But it’s not like a scraped knee or a bruise or a blistering sore. No, it’s a pain that no amount of bandaids and Neosporin or heat and pressure can fix. And I don’t understand why it’s eating away at my insides...
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No one should ever have to get used to feeling not...
Repeat after me: I am good enough.
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People who talk about others' sex life and...
fuck you. There’s just no nice or poetic way to say it. I mean, what makes you think that someone’s private life is any of your concern? If they don’t flat out talk about it, then it’s none of your business. Stop making big deals out of what other people are and what other people do and deal with your own shit in your own life.
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My boyfriend literally set an alarm for 3:03 in the morning just so he could call me and wish me a happy birthday. Why, you ask? Because February 18th at 3:03 AM was the minute I was born 18 years ago and he is perfect.
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I hate when people make a big deal out of things...
Would it kill you to get out of my face? I’ll tell you what I want to tell you when I want to tell you it. I’m sick of the constant questionnaire. Leave me alone. (Please)
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The worst feeling is feeling someone forget about...
You can hear it in their voice. They don’t speak to you with the same tone as they used to. They go hours without answering you, when they used to be just a text message away. They don’t try anymore. Their eyes lose their liveliness. Their forehead creases over and looking down at the ground, they rub their temples when they talk to you. Their words become jumbled with things to say...
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I don’t like getting too close to the raging ocean waters. The change of climate makes me nauseous. I don’t like feeling like this. I don’t like stepping outside of my comfort zone. But for you, I will. I just hope I don’t drown before I reach you. Or worse, you’ll learn to pull yourself out and leave me stranded in the middle of the sea.
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Word of mouth travels fast.
Before you know it, everyone knows your life.
And you know what?
I’m okay with that.
You can talk about me all you want. You can create a time line of every event in my history. You can paint pictures of every scene that I endure. But your words and paintings will hold no substance, because you’ll never feel what I feel. You can’t feel my love, my happiness, my anger, or my...
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Sick sick sick
of being held back and told what to do and treated like I’m too dumb to make my own decisions. I’m in this alone. I’ve always been alone. When I make mistakes, I alone suffer the consequences. If I think the consequences are worth it or not even there, then why should you try and stop me from doing what I want? I’m tired of acting like an ungrateful brat, but I’m...
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I'm glad you love me because I love you and that means we love each other and that is stronger than you loving me or me loving you.
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I feel uneasy about the fact
that you talk about me when I’m not there, that you have conversations about my life and business, that you bring up the past. It all comes back to me. But when I’m in the same room as you, you say nothing. We’re just stone cold strangers, and you don’t even care. You can’t have it both ways. Either grow up and speak to me or stop talking about me, because I...
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Maybe if I spent more time actually talking to the people in my life instead of writing about them on tumblr, my relationships wouldn’t be nearly as problem-filled as they are.
Or maybe not.